Can we just be real for a second
I say it in my own head
A little wish for myself
For you
To hold my hand close to your heart
And just be still with me a while
Let me feel it beat
Against the back of my hand
A determined pulse
Poetic and mechanical
And ultimately as real as this moment
That I would happily stop and revel in
For always or at least
Another five minutes
Please
I place my ear on your chest to hear it
And try to quiet my own breath a while
Caught up as it is in a small contented smile
I curl up like a cat and let you lift me
With the quiet consistent movement of your lungs
Filled up with comfort
And happy sighs
Your arms not frightened to hold me carefully there
And luxuriate in this reality
Even though if I think too much I am terrified
Slightly wide eyed
Can we just be real for a second
I say it in my own head
For a second or for much longer
I say it in my own head
Like a wish
For you
As you reel me back in to the moment
And I remember
What it is to be real
And what it is to mean something
To somebody
Again